Thursday, August 30, 2012

Funny how things change...oh, thanks to FB

So, going through high school I was in no way a nerd (well I don't think I was, I was too busy to care anyway) nor was I popular. I got along with everyone, most of the time, unless I was just being a bitch. I was for sure always trying to put a smile on people's face to distract from my insecurities. I think that every kid has a way to deflect from their insecurities. The "popular girls" were bitches because their world wasn't all that perfect. The "goth kids" we were weird to get the focus off of what their insecurities were too. You remember that one kids that was a huge jock that made everyone laugh and had no problem calling out the nerdy kid to get attention off of himself - yeah that dickhead - he had problems too. It seriously took me growing up (meaning having kids) to realize this. We were seriously all kids trying to find a way to make up for all the shit that we didn't know how or couldn't fix. 

I am in a online mommy group. There are tons of ladies on there that I either don't know, know, or haven't talked to in a long time. Some ladies I have at one time disliked, hated, made fun of, or just rolled my eyes when I heard their name. When I say "at one time" that was before the wonder revelation of parenthood hit. Having kids, seriously changes the way you think, feel, and opens your ass up to be one emotional bitch. (No, I am not pregnant, and Yes, I still cry all the damn time, ((over stupid shit)) Anyway - getting back to my point - Some of these ladies have been a real help and inspiration to become a better person/mom. At one time all the talk of organics and breastfeeding had me rolling my eyes because there are some really strong opinions on that forum, but then I realized - they are doing what they feel is best for their child. So I started to look into things and yes - I am pro-organic and it pains me that I can't afford a $7 gallon of organic milk for my kids but I am trying now. I am still anti-breastfeeding for me - let me stress FOR ME. I think it's great that other people want and can do it, but it just isn't happening for me. 

My main point of this fraking blog was that being in this group and having kids has really opened my eyes, to the fact that we all weren't as perfect as we thought back then. Now we are all parents. We have goals, hopes, and wishes for our children. When something happens or I need advice (because I don't like what people around me are saying) I ask the ladies. They give honest and thoughtful advice. Some of them have kids that are older and some have kids that are still cooking. It's nice to have somewhere to go and talk to girls I have known for over half of my life (Aimee, Tiffanie, and others; almost my entire life) and get their take on things, find remedies, and just have somewhere to vent when Hubbs is being a bonehead. These girls, who are now women - have become people that I trust and talk to often online. I have become one of those ladies who starts off a convo by saying, "In my mommy's group....blah blah blah" At that time, my mother or Hubbs just rolls their eyes. But still - I wish we could get kids in high school to understand that these people that you dislike, hate, talk about will one day undoubtedly become someone that you will trust and talk to. People are just people. We all have our own problems and no one is better then anyone else. We are all different - Kumbaya - you get my drift I just think that it's funny how things work out. Have a good one - and remember - that bitch that passed you on the street and gave you that "get real" look - she's got problems too, we all do! Don't get me wrong some people NEVER grow up and are still bitches and a-holes - just being able to understand why has made my life much easier!

Enough of this emotional shit, gotta get Lilli to stop trying to ride Rascal - cause he looks like he wants to bit her ass. 


  1. hahaha!

    i wouldn't go back to highschool in a million years because it was a pain in the ass! and it kills me that some still put so much stock in highschool "status" - nerd, jock, whatever. it was 10 years ago helllooooo...and it doesn't define someone for their entire life!

  2. also, i find it really interesting how you said: "It seriously took me growing up (meaning having kids)"

    do you mean that for you, growing up = having kids?

    that'd be an interesting blog post in itself! especially for people who don't have kids yet :)

    i feel more grown up now that i am married (which is weird for me, because i have always felt grown up for, oh, forever) and it'll be interesting to see how that feeling shifts again once we have kids. :)

    1. I think that I was grown up in a sense before kids, but I still worried what others thought of me...but after having the girls - I can really see how we are all just the same. After kids - everyone has stretch marks (unless you have the best genetics or money for surgery), sleepless nights, different kinds of worries, and the things that you thought were important really don't mean anything. It's weird - I just see everyone else as more human - you know what I mean?

    2. i do understand what you mean!! very insightful :)